disordered chaos

back on the ana train .
day two , new fast.

i got fat , don't hate me.
gained like four pounds, fucking naaaastt.
I'm attempting a five day fast,
see how i go from there
having a blood condition makes fasts even harder.
basically i got taken home from school
fainted in front of the office, just my luck
I can't faint privately..


trying so so so so hard, determined ,
110, i  will hit 110.

i miss drugs, being straight-edge sucks,
couple of dex would be absolutely fabulous
keep me up , keep me sedated.

I think dads getting suspicious,
at least my friends haven't figured it out yet
HATE when they get on my case about not eating,
i'm pretty positive i can hide it this time ,
i won't tell a soul , only LJ .

at least i have the day to suffer in silence,
watch some thinspiration , work on my book
maybe even throw in a couple workouts;)

gone to nap , live off water.
PCE. ♥

HW: 157
LW: 120
CW: 127
1GW: 120
UGW: 110.